I have down days, just like everyone else – but since I came
back from Holiday in November every day for a long time seemed to be a down
day, things were looking bleak. I’m not an expert but I was showing all the signs
for depression, maybe it was SAD, who knows? I was seeing the negative in
everything and not looking forward to tomorrow. Life seems to be drowning me in
negativity and it hurt. I always like to
work towards goals, usually it’s holidays etc. and every goal just seemed so
far away and out of reach.
As I said I’d have down days before, but not like this – not
for such long periods of time either, I was struggling to cope. Going to the
gym and exercising it out seemed to be the only way for temporary release as
the endorphin high made me feel normal again, but once it wore off I was back
to my dark self.
Then the 24th December came, and I left work that
afternoon and headed to my family to go celebrate, knowing it was going to be a
quieter Christmas than I’ve experience before and frankly just seeing every
single negative aspects of Christmas (now I’m feeling better I can’t think of
any Christmas negativity). I arrived to two very excited parents, who even in
their 50s were looking forward to Christmas with the same excitement of a 5 year old – not for the presents but
spending time with the people we love. The people we can be ourselves with, the
people who will forgive us no matter what happens, the people who will love
unconditionally. I’m luckily enough to call these people my family. We might
not agree all the time about certain matters (in fact we rarely do), but there
is something warm, comforting and lovely being with these people. After a cup of tea and a mince pie with my
very excited festive parents I immediately felt better and enjoy a very lovely festive season – coming out of it
looking forward to what 2014 with my usual super enthusiastic, optimistic self.
A little Festive therapy went a long way in improving my mood and making me realise that I have sooooooooooooo much in the world to be grateful for.
Happy New Year all.
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| Moo and I getting into the Festive Cheer |
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